I've Missed You and it's all MY FAULT!

First let me say I have missed being in this mind frame, what mind frame is that? A CREATIVE ONE! And I have missed you and being in this space.

I will be honest I haven’t been in a creative mind frame in a while. For my clients, it’s a natural thing because I am pushed by the fact that I have a job to do. But for self… it has been a very long time. I honestly don’t know how or when I arrived at this place but I knew I didn’t want to stay here, it just didn’t feel right because of what I knew. A sign that it’s time to “grow” is that feeling of being uncomfortable in a space because you have that gut feeling “this ain’t it.

I knew I was destined for more, called to create and capable of designing the life I wanted to live (we all are). But my human nature lead me to create excuses, complain, my capabilities became clouded by my constant comparison of the world around me. Social media has created a new enemy we must fight. Even if you don’t want to admit it we compare our lives to other more than we’ve ever done before. This is why there are so many depressed, anxious, and stressed. But in my own self-evaluating and inner work, I have discovered that we have the power to combat this new nemesis and everything we are faced with if we decide to be intentional about it.

In my getting intentional about this fight I realized something!

THERE IS ALWAYS GOING TO BE SOMETHING or SOMEONE THAT IS GOING TO TRY AND STOP YOU! (intentionally and unintentionally)

Circumstances, situations, trials, and tribulation will always be around. Things will always be happening, it won’t ever seem like the perfect time, you’ll always doubt yourself, the enemy will whisper in your ear to quit, you’ll always compare even if it’s just a little. BUT YOU CAN KEEP GOING IF YOU DECIDE TO!

WHAT YOU DO or DON’T DO plays such a huge role in what you make happen in your life. In recognizing this I said to myself “it’s ME keeping ME in this uncreative rut”!

We can sometimes be our biggest contender when it comes to fighting for our dreams to manifest. Sure we can play the blame game and try to put the fact that we aren’t DOING on someone or something else. It’s way easier to blame someone or something else because looking within and becoming self-aware is no easy feat I am here to tell you.

Me going within revealed that “I am HERE in the space because of the decisions that I have made”. Every single day we are given the opportunity to choose, to decide and to be exactly who we want to be. But some of us shrink back we decide that we aren’t worthy, we choose to do nothing and then we find ourselves disappointed with the outcome. Because we decided that we aren’t this or that because we aren't here or there or we don't have this or that!

DEAD THAT NOISE IN 2019 and DO YOU, DO WHAT YOU DEEM SUCCESSFUL, DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO TO FEEL CREATIVE and FREE. GO, START, DO and BE who YOU want to BE!

I almost didn’t sit down to write this because it really shows how inconsistent I have been with updating my blog post and sending newsletters and what not. And I chose to think “everyone else will be sending stuff like this to” But all that inner work I have been talking about has shown me that I have been inconsistent because I chose to be. And SO WHAT if I am sending this when I am sending this. I had to ask myself who I was doing all of this for! This was for me, as much as it is for you reading this. Self-doubt told me no one will read because it’s way too long. Oh well, this is for me, a creative release, and my need to plant a seed.

So if you’ve made it to the bottom of this page I don’t want you to share with me you’ve read this, I want you to PUSH past your self-doubt, comparison, and complaining and do that thing you know you should do. Do that thing you know God is calling you too, do that thing that others are also doing for the people who only you can reach, yeah we are starting fresh in 2019 to combat with ourselves and our inconsistencies we got this! Go for it!

Happy 2019!